yay me.

although i feel sicker than a mofo, i feel GOOD. i feel like something inside of me has matured and i'm able to let my anger go & just forgive. not so much forget because its those things we come out of that strengthen who we are & what we're capable. i look back on the entire situation & i feel like an idiot for reacting so crazy & letting it get to me. hella caught up in the " whats wrong w/ me? what does she have that i dont? " i can't keep holding on to my anger like it makes everything better, i guess if you didn't want me then we're just not right. " if you dont love me, someone else will " oh & " if you leave you leavin the best, so you will hafta settle for less " ahahah, its okay tho i'm in a better place now. i have my head on straight & i know what i want. you are it. i let other things cloud my vision before but now i see what makes sense for me & that is working hard to be w/ someone who treats me correct, appreciates me, & has that sincere adoration that i am IT & theres no one else above me. i'm not used to putting in work but i feel like this would only be the most appropriate time. i've gotten fucked over by others & all i can do is learn from it, no longer should i be bitter & angry because i've learned that that's UNHEALTHY. i wanna come out of this situation the bigger person & know that i've made the right decisions. i feel like i'm headed in that direction. i'm excited for what's in store. still feeling a bit dumb for taking so long to realize what i had was amazing & that i let my stupidity fuck it all away. then getting caught up w/ more stupid shit? ugh, not cool yo. in all honesty, i have no room for negative energy in my life so from here on out i shall try to do my best to keep everything as positive as possible.

"i will, i will, i will, i'll work for love, overtime. " -usher
" lets take this ' good enough ' & turn it to ' GREAT ' " - neyo
" Love, live life, proceed, progress. "- lil wayne