just a few thoughts.. hold my hand..

i dont know what ever happened to the simple pleasure of holding my hand. i think it's amazing how a lot of guys are so caught up in the idea that all women in general are in love with the idea of holding them captive. i mean really, do you honestly believe that being in a relationship means losing all your freedom & privileges? if that's the case then you've been with all the wrong women. & shame on you for generalizing & stereotyping us down to prisonwards. all i've ever wanted was someone to fall back on. i don't need you to be with me every waking second of every fucking day of my life. i need air. i'd like to breathe. i need my girlfriends. i refuse to let you become my everything. oh & just for the record this isn't going out to anyone specific because my significant other gives me all i need & more while still holding back enough to make me thirst for his company. how nice right? but anywho, i'm so over this whole " being tied down " thing. if that's what you think of your relationship then you shouldn't be in one. grow up & learn that the simplest things count, that your holding my hand throughout all my trials & tribulations is all i ever want & need. all i want is companionship. some members of the opposite sex just don't understand.

anyways, so what's new? what's good? LIFE nigga. i just can't believe how the pieces are starting to fall together. i'm so proud of myself for at least finishing this last semester strong. i know i fucked up in the beginning but fuck, i'm getting it together & i honestly believe better late than never.

i'm excited for the new year. i know a lot of people don't believe in the new year symbolizing new beginnings, to them its just another day.. but for me it really is a fresh start. i'm going to start this year with a new job, new boyfriend, eventually a new place and i'm leaving my bad habits & those things i just couldn't shake before, back in 2008. i pray to god for my health & that all those things that like to creep back up STAY in 08. i honestly feel like this is going to be my year, i'm getting my focus back & i'm so ecstatic.