ignorance.

your ignorance amazes me, i meaaaan .. often times i feel taken for granted. after all thats happened & all time thats passed & the exchange of words & feelings i just don't understand why i feel like i'm at the bottom of your list. i feel like any old body, & only when you're left w/ no options do you come to me for comfort. i'm kind of sick of being YOUR safety blanket. ugh. once something better comes along you jump, when youre stuck in a rut you call me. bleh. life just doesnt make sense. Love, is such a strong word. so strong that i just dont believe you can handle it anymore. maybe i'm trippin off nothing again, over reacting to something so small & minimal like i alawys do. idk. whatever. all i know is that i don't wanna be available to you whenever you feel like you need me, & when you got something else going on you just cut out on me. constantly blowing me up & looking to hang when you need something, accusing me of 'forgetting about you' when i dont answer bc im busy. ugh. this all perturbs me to another level. no longer will i be here for your convenience.