forgiveness.

someone recommended i blog here instead all over myspace. so i guess here i am. well lately it seems like i cant seem to get a handle on things. everyone knows im emotionally driven & for some reason i like to think with my heart & feelings & not my head. i realized that my problem is that i cant let shit go. i just cant seem to fully grasp ideas that are so simple. FORGIVENESS. ive always regarded myself as a very forgiving person, i like to forgive & forget.. like others have done for me. but lately it seems like the hardest thing. i cant let shit go. why? it took me damn near 6 or 7 months to get over heart ache only to find myself in the same place all over again. i told myself lesson learned, move on get over it & smile. but i keep getting myself in the same sticky situations all over again. im easily attached, emotionally retarded & sensitive as FUCK. i want you to go away, i want IT to go away. i feel used. likee they all get what they want then cut. i dont understand. i really wish theyd all go fuck themselves then jump. i know that spiritually ill be in a better place if i could just LET THIS SHIT go. but its so hard. its like i need to do certain things, listen to certain music just to reinforce my faith in Love. i wanna forgive, let go & go back to believing that Love conquers all.